| | I'm getting really tired of that song. It's weird, I somehow remember the lyrics to the songs I dislike most easily. And for the ones I try and try to remember, doesn't work. Whatever. I'm starting to get into John Legend songs too.
"Give me that green light. Give me just one night. "
Argh, the song is on the radio again for like the millionth time. I wish 10pm would just come right now so I can listen to the Power Love Hour. Only thing that's keeping me from turning off the radio. 
Anyways, so this Twilight hype. I did not get into it. I haven't read the books but I did watch the movie last night. I always try not to get into the hype but always end up dropping in to see what it is all about. My overall thoughts on the movie:
I can feel that the story is rushed without reading the book.
The acting is okay. Not the best, not the worst.
Story is good however and it is why I decided to read the series now.
Hmm... guess I am in the hype now. It's cool though.
Back to the title of this entry, "Miss Independent". I realized something over the past few days and wanted to let it out. Specifically towards someone but I rather just let it out in writing.
So most friends or who knows me know that I am independent since I was young. I don't like relying on people. I always solve problems on my own before my stubborn self realize I need outside help. Yadda Yadda Yadda. And oh, with this whole college thing, adds more to it. Ever since I moved outside my mom's house, I don't feel any different. I still feel as if I lived with my mother except the home cooked meals and nagging. I'm not homesick. I miss Malaysia though but that's always in me. It's sad to say but I don't miss my mother. This past Turkey Break, I went home and barely saw my mother. However, I am glad that she was happy on Turkey Day as we spent the night by the beach enjoying our $90 dinner for two. Awesome. 
So what about this independence. This independence I guess has taken its toll. Now that it is known, I do feel lonely. I wish life is easier and people would understand others just as easy. But life is life, it is unfair and stubborn and hard. Sometimes I would make life easier on myself but that's never going to happen. I somehow always involuntarily volunteer for things. Then I can't back out because I don't want to let people down. I like people to know they can always rely on me but then I always think I can rely on them just as good and get disappointed. I seriously think moving to the forest or an abandon island and live by myself would make me satisfy. But that's a lie on its own.
I like people caring and worry about me. I like to get attention from certain people but never seems like I can to the amount I like. I don't crave attention but sometimes knowing that someone does care about you in that way is pleasing. I don't always crave it either, so is it that hard? So living by myself on an island or the forest won't work. I should get a dog. There's a joke I read somewhere. It is quite interesting. If you lock your girlfriend/boyfriend and a dog in your trunk, then open it few hours later. Who is happier to see you? First thing that comes to my mind is the dog of course. I don't think anyone or animal would like to be locked in the car trunk for a few hours or even a minute but if it was to happen. I'd imagine the human being would start to scream vulgarity while the dog will lick your face happily. Unless, the world is turned inside out and turned upside down, then excuse my assumptions.
I think that's my solution. Get myself a dog and go live in the forest by myself. Now all I have to do is to choose a forest or deserted island. Awesome plan.
Ahh.. this wasn't how I wanted my entry wanted to go but it is. Whatever.
Randomess of today: I was excited for this holiday season but now I am not so sure anymore. |
| | Posted 12/2/2008 10:24 PM - 14 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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