| | Ever since I was young, I've always liked guys within my race and outside my race but I never pictured myself being with someone outside my race. Little did I know, I was snatched by my Brazilian boyfriend of two years in the beginning of my Sophomore year in High School. Unfortunately, my heart got broken and shattered in the middle of the two years. So that was that. Then a couple of months later, my Brazilian boyfriend of now and I got together. I stalked him for quite a while back in High School. Guess the outcome of that was positive results. 
But, that's not the main topic for this entry. I realized something today why some people doesn't believe interracial relationships will work. Well, it may work but there are always kinks in the way. That's what a relationship is for though right? Stay together, make compromises, and make it work.
So with the first interracial relationship I had, I never really hung out with a group of friends of his that are very different from us. By that I mean cultures, language barriers, personalities, etc... His friends were practically my friends. So hanging out together wasn't really a big problem. When it came to holidays, I didn't really have to worry or be uncomfortable in a situation where I have to celebrate it with his family. One, they don't really celebrate anything besides Weddings and Baby Showers. Two, if they were to celebrate with family, there were no awkward situations felt from my point of view.
Now moving onto the present. Thanksgiving is coming up and so are the other holidays that follow. I'd love to spend it with my boyfriend's family but I do have my mom here to spend it with. However, sometimes my mom may be working on the day of, her boss is a jerk. Luckily, she got the Thanksgiving off.  But I did think about what if my mom was working on the day of. I don't really like to be home by my lonesome on a day where it should be celebrate with family. I was invited to spend it with my boyfriend's family and their friends. I don't mind it but I don't like to be in uncomfortable places. I hung out with his family friends before once, it wasn't bad as he was always by myself not to make me feel awkward. But, I hate being in the situation where I'm holding him back to have fun with them. I am not a very social person but I am trying. I don't like to embarrass myself in front of strangers and getting made fun of when I'm not really comfortable with them. I wouldn't mind as much if I knew them well enough. Yes, friends of mine, make fun of me all you want, but remember, "What comes around goes around." 
So.. after that being said. This kind of let me concur on my own that why interracial relationships will have its kinks. When two different families come together, especially when they may have different cultures, moral beliefs/values and etc, they will clash. Well, even without the racial barrier, I think same racial in-laws have problems too. For what? The benefits and protection of their own son/daughter. Anyways.. point is, well, I kind of forgot what my point is. 
That being said and done. College life! It is chill. I go to class whenever I please.. well, it was the same too in High School but more freedom here. I don't know what's the College hype about. Freedom, parties, etc. The freedom I have now is the same kind of freedom I had back home ever since Middle School. Parties, I never really liked parties and most college parties here are all about alcohol most of the time. I do not think you need alcohol to have fun and I also realized, I really hate the feeling of being drunk. Tipsy is okay but being drunk, no way. Never been to wasted mode but it is okay. Etc... yes there are more things to do on campus but that's if my lazy butt would get up and get out more. Maybe that's why I'm not seeing the college hype. I do attend events and activities. Heck, I danced my freezing butt off for a good month for a show last Tuesday.
I do like College though. I do feel that I am really independent now. I can finally see how and why I am. I was always told that I am but I never really felt it till now. I pay my own bills, solve my own problems, cook for myself and my boyfriend when he visits, and etc. I'm really proud that I cook now more than anything. I'm excited to go back this Thanksgiving break to learn how to make a few of my mom's recipes; her fried shrimp and stuffed portobello mushrooms. Getting hungry just thinking of it. 
On another note, we've been together for half a year already. It's crazy when I think about it. I went from crushing on him, to like him, to stalk him, to actually being with him. There are many things I wish we could've done differently back in High School. But when I think about it, we would be so attached to each other as we are now if it was done the way we wanted it to be done? Long distance relationships are hard. This is my second long distance but this is more real than the first one. And I love the feeling that whenever we are together again, it felt like we've never been separated. It's an awesome feeling.
Randomness of today: I made Fried Rice! |
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